I find that the worst analogy ever. You can’t just go out there an catch another fish and throw the other one away. It’s not that simple. Each fish is more like a fire. You can start the fire and see what happens. Take a chance and see where it goes. And if things are good add oil to feed the…
Began with a disappointing soccer tournament loss that reminded me about the respect that accompanies competitive effort and the bitter taste of being in reach of your goals and then failing to accomplish them..
The week itself was extremely busy - I don’t think there was a night I slept before 2, and it was interesting running around doing everything from reciting lines behind some hideous green mask to trying to write a presentation for some monstrous code. Needless to say I was pretty exhausted the entire week, and definitely need to catch up on some sleep. Finals were pretty mellow actually, it was the group projects that required a ton of work.
Friday.. Didn’t really feel like that last day of school. And I guess I say this in the sense that it didn’t really feel any different from any other day of the year. I guess this entire year I haven’t really cared that much about my studies.. Somehow this worries me for college. Anyway, got my prom pictures, yellow sheet signed, and my graduation apparel. Yearbook signing also happened.
The Aloha Dance… was pretty disappointing. At least from my perspective. Keep in mind I was running off about eleven hours of sleep over the past three nights.
I ended up being a driver LOL and chauffeured four people around pre-dance while they prepared and did whatever they needed to do.. Honestly all I wanted to do was eat my Spicy Italian sandwich - which was pretty damn good, by the way.
I didn’t really know what to expect when I showed up but I was already feeling pretty drained and began questioning why I was even there when the ASB Treasurer left an hour into it.. But I basically stayed on to hang out with my friends and just chill for a while. I didn’t dance - or try to - at all the entire time, and my mood was basically one of ambivalence. Perhaps I was just tired, or the IDC dance set the bar too high, or I felt awkward around people I know, but even if I wanted to there literally weren’t enough girls around to dance with. Also, some of the songs played at the dance really made me question the substance of modern music LOL. Honestly.
For the duration of the dance I walked around and chilled with friends, and I also saw a few depressed people, which essentially ruined my night. Which is interesting, because I guess it just demonstrates the strength of empathy: when my friend(s) is having a horrible time, I guess I just begin to feel just as horrible inside, whether sad, angered, or both. There were a few depressing things to see at the dance, so it basically just sucked for me.
Oh well though, I guess I’ll count it as a nine dollar contribution to the school and a time to hang out with my friends. Really wasn’t feeling an afterparty - since I wasn’t even feeling the dance - and dropped off a friend before I went home.
Aloha blew.
And here I am.
I’m going to try and catch up on some sleep this weekend… and hit the gym or do some form of physical exercise as I really haven’t this entire week..
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